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The objective of this project is to explore and acknowledge my different selves. These paintings are performances of the self; they each showcase a way in which I perform my identity. The word performance, perhaps suggests dishonesty, and I often wonder if I am dishonest because I am not one thing. Through this project, I explore the different performances of self not as a form of deception or deceit, but as a form of self-expression, self-preservation and self-reflection. My goal for this project extends beyond just acknowledging myselves, I also would like to give myself the power and freedom to be all of these selves at every moment, and it made the most sense to me to do this by offering myselves with divine energy and power. The tools I use to ascribe divinity to myselves are technical, compositional, and conceptual. I use dramatic lighting, stoic expressions, vibrant colours, and staged poses for the figures. My paintings are representations of the things that make me who I am; they include ideas of home, personality, and culture. I used flowers as a conceptual tool, as flowers have cultural and religious significance in Hinduism and Hindu mythology. My SIP consists of three paintings, amma loves these flowers as much as she loves me, my body wasn’t made for this white shit, and eppotum padukappu, eppotum vali. In the era of the Trump presidency, and in a country where people of colour have a long history of struggle and suffering, I think it is important for me, as a person of colour, as a woman, and as an artist, to take up space. Even coming from a country that was colonized by white people, a country where the space of my people was taken from them, I think these paintings help me in reclaiming that space. It is important not only for me to take up space, but also for me to be heard in that space. What I do with that space becomes important. This project is just the first step, reclaiming and establishing my space is the first step. Now, I must use my space to help in dismantling white supremacist models, patriarchal concepts, and post-colonial standards. The goal is not to have the need to take up space, but have every space belong to me, and to everybody else who needs it.