Playing the Artist: The Creative Process for Playing the Rapist
Playing the Rapist is the culmination of years of exploration and growth. While that may sound grandiose, I fully believe that this production was the last line in the first chapter of my story as an artist. Through the process of creating this piece I discovered my role as an artist and the work that I want to do. The process of becoming an artist has been long and difficult. The story began the first time I held a script in my hand. Alison Wonderland was the first play I ever did, and I do feel that I have gone through the rabbit whole. I always enjoyed doing plays, but I always refused to believe that I was an actor. The change finally came when I had to admit that no matter how many different majors I tried out, the only thing that made me happy was theater. That is not completely true though. I've always loved writing, and perhaps I am a writer before I am an actor. I am still not sure about that one. I have always loved language: its construction, its malleability, and its ability to create. My passion for writing and my passion for acting were strong, but it was not until I found the visual side of things that everything came together. When I used writing and performance in the context of sculpture I realized the power of these art forms, and how they are incomplete to me unless I have fused them together. Therefore, the process of creating this piece has been synthesis of my passions. In an attempt to put some sort of closure on this process I will describe the piece as a written work, describing my role as author. I will then explain the choices I made as the director/designer for the actual production of the Playing the Rapist. Next will be an exploration of what it was like as an actor. Finally, I will attempt to put this work in a greater context within my life as an artist and my hope of doing more of this work in the future.